Frustration.....frustration .....frustration.....

I don't exactly know how to express what I am feeling in words. I am soooooo frustrated with people right now. I am sooooo disappointed in people right now. I am sooooo disappointed in myself right now for feeling like I do!

When on God's green earth will we learn that God has HIS timing, HIS purpose, HIS people, HIS word, HIS work to do and accomplish, and get our stinkin' minds off from around it and stop trying to figure it out and dictate what we think?! When will we allow God to move in HIS sovereignty in this city without "trying to make it happen"? If we, as the Body of Christ would just be the true worshippers that God wants us to be .... and step out in faith believing....then GOD .... not "my church" or "my pastor" or "this prophet (ess)" or "this program" or "this persons tape series"....it is about RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD PEOPLE! Having clean hands and a pure heart!

Worship the ONE TRUE GOD IN SPIRIT AND IN TRUTH!

OOOOOOHHHHHHH....uuuuuuggggh!

Did I mention that I was frustrated and disappointed? hmmm?

Help me Lord....I love YOU Lord...I can't imagine how you feel sometimes. My heart is breaking....no matter what I will worship YOU...just because of who YOU are....simply...because of who YOU are.

Good morning.

Another weekend in the Emergency Room and it literally has been a blood-spilled weekend. . . a young girl who was dragged beneath a car for two city blocks...a drunk who was brought in by the police and while in our X-ray dept. decided he would "head-butt" our x-ray equipment causing a HUGE gash across his already bleeding skull! ... and...it went on and on....! I spent most of the weekend in protective gear, avoiding "the blood" of others. Perhaps there is a message here? Then while trying to help these people they are yelling obscenities at me and spitting in my face. Hmmm? You see I am a "whitey" and I don't understand. "You don't walk where I walk." They said, " You don't have the issues that we have. Just fix her. Can't you fix her? Oh, God. Can't you fix her face? Where her face!?" Not an easy thing... You see, people do need the Lord. How are we going to reach them. When will we walk where they walk, without fear, in the power of a Holy, Righteous, Victorious God? HERE I AM LORD! SEND ME! Thank you for the opportunity to serve YOU Lord in the workplace....please extend my tent pegs...I want to see YOU in the streets of this city!

All I am going to say for now is ... Thank YOU LORD for your protection. Thank YOU LORD that YOU have me covered. Thank YOU LORD that because of YOU I can comfort those who need comfort by YOUR HOLY SPIRIT. Thank YOU for YOUR peace and YOUR rest. Father heal that young girl not just physically but spiritually as well. Show her she has an Everpresent Help in time of need. Teach her that at what time she is afraid she can trust in YOU. I ask that no bitter root grow from this. Father, I ask that her brother, who is a pastor, would receive revelation and wisdom directly from your throne room. Be Jehovah Nissi, Jehovah Shalom, Jehovah Sabbioth...Be the I am that I am....God...just be...in me...I love You, Elohim, my beloved!

In, through and to HIM....
Deborha